Changing

Being a new year, I've been thinking about the past year a lot. I love the idea of a "new start" and setting goals and all of the things that happen around January. I'm sad to say I feel like I have been the worst version of myself in the last year. I don't regret things that happened this year, because I have learned more than any other year. But it's weird to think how different of a person I've become. Last semester I worked too much and had too many responsibilities. I didn't give myself time to do the things I love. I want to be able to cook, paint, sew, run, actually plan fun things with Joey like I used to, put more effort into relationships I care about, travel, learn another language, and a million other things. It was pathetic that last semester I had to tell friends to meet me at the tutoring center to "hang out" while I did math. ew. I am so excited for this semester. I will still have plenty to do, but I'm cleaning less houses, I'm not working at Turn anymore, no more boyfriend, no more math 1050, and no night classes!!!. I have a lot to do still and plan on never being even a little bit bored, but more of my time will be spent on things I love. I won't be so over-tired/booked that I will just be a lazy grump every time I hang out. (sound familiar? because it sounds a lot like me last semest).

I'm not writing this to beat myself up. I'm not trying to be negative it's just realizing things need to change for the better and working on it.